今天在家裡過了一整天

對我來說
生病或許是常見的事
雖然我的病沒有嚴重到像要住院
但也總是生病了

休息
對一個人來說
是一件很重要的事
我不認為一個人總是得努力硬撐著自己去做任何事
但只光遇到困難變逃避也是不行的
可生理上的事並不是說能夠忍受得了的人變能夠支持住自己


我是一直很想逃避現實

了解該面對

開始整頓自己的環境
對自己有了期許
按時交自己該交的作業
也會坐在書桌前看看書
規定自己一個星期內一定要抽空去老師家練琴幾個小時
坐在電腦前的時間也變少了許多

我唯一討厭的只是團體活動

很多事
可以假裝不明白
可以假裝不清楚
但我很清楚我明白
這一切也只是表面

誰能真正駕馭自己?
此時的你心理已經起了巨大的波濤
是什麼力量能夠使這一切平靜下來

we’re the same
還停留在雛鳥階段
正學著如何去飛
學著如何把持得住自己不被強風影響
學著做最好的自己

這是現在的我
或許以後還會有改變

現在的我不想總活在後悔中
我想以最快樂的方式是自己度過這難熬的日子
不需要誰的評論
或許錯 或許對
這次是我自己的選擇
no one can be in my way 
i just wanna be myself

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趁機忙裡偷閒中
不然有點不能呼吸
一直趕自己
一直逼自己
做該做的事

但我不會因為這樣而有不滿
因為
這本來就是該做的事吧

變了
我想變得更好

或許在某些方面變得很自私(?)

但我不想放棄我自己

這就像是二選一的題目
你可以選擇更好
也可以選擇維持現狀


為了自己努力是很棒的事吧
但很少人懂

to be or not to be



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最近這幾天真是....?

前天手長了12個水泡另一隻也有
昨天手又淤血淤青
今天背跟肩膀超痛的


唉唷
最近怎麼一直受傷???

畸形!!

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I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

 

 

 

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Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!

You must think I'm a fool
So prosaic and awkward and all
D'you think you've got me down?
D'you think I've never been out of this town?

Do I seem too eager to please to you now?
You don't know me at all
I can't turn it on, turn it off like you now
I'm not like you now

Now you're here
I bet you're wishing you could disappear
I'm trying to be kind
I get the feeling you're just killing time

You look down on me
Don't you look down on me now
You don't know me at all
A slap in the face
In the face for you now
Just might do now

You're leaving so soon
Never had a chance to bloom
But you were so quick
To change your tune
Don't look back
If I'm a weight around your neck
Cos if you don't need me
I don't need you

Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!

Leaving so soon, soon
Leaving, leaving so, soon

You're leaving so soon
Never had a chance to bloom
But you were so quick
To change your tune
Don't look back
If I'm a weight around your neck
Cos if you don't need me
Then I don't need you

Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!

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  • Mar 25 Sun 2007 19:48
  • Duvet

 

 


歌:BOA 詞:Jasmine Rodgers for BOA 曲: BOA

And you don't seem to understand
A shame you seemed an honest man
And all the fears you hold so peak
Will turn to whisper in your ear
And you know what they say might hurt you
And you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing

I am falling, I am fading,
I have lost it all

And you don't seem the lying kind
A shame then I can read your mind
And all the things that I read there
Candle lit smile that we both share
And you know I don't mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing


I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning,
Help me to breathe
I am hurting, I have lost it all
I am losing
Help me to breathe

I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning,
Help me to breathe
I am hurting, I have lost it all
I am losing,
Help me to breathe

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Bedshaped
Lyrics:Keane Music:Keane Arranger:Keane

Many's the time I ran with you down
The rainy roads of your old town
Many the lives we lived in each day
And buried altogether
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now

And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do


Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

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